This is me…Now. But it wasn’t always so. Let me explain.
I purposely chose this particular rendition of this song as it shows how raw, how vulnerable and real Keala Settle is. You not only visibly see her raw emotion, you can hear it in her voice and every fiber of her being,, followed by her purposeful pursuit of being herself.
I tear up every single time I listen to this a song and for good reason. This WAS me.
Just like her, I wanted to hide, stay in the dark where I felt safer.In the dark, no one could see just how broken I REALLY was. I was scared to be seen. Really seen.
Until the risk of continuing to hide was greater than the risk of being seen. My shame was undone. I was undone.The fear of never being enough,finally exposed, became the stepping stone on which I know am able to appreciate my bruises and scars,unabashedly. Those sacred scars,have a become a beautiful reminder of just how brave, how strong I really am. The unraveling of who I thought I had to be, to the unveiling of who I really am has, at times, been painful but worth it. I’m no longer afraid to been seen.
This is me.
Has this journey been hard?Heck yeah!
Has it been worth it?
Unequivocally and empathically, YES and I make no apologies for being, simply me.
Be your beautiful self, be you!
Everyone else is already taken!
This Is Me
I am not a stranger to the dark
Hide away, they say
‘Cause we don’t want your broken parts
I’ve learned to be ashamed of all my scars
Run away, they say
No one’ll love you as you are
But I won’t let them break me down to dust
I know that there’s a place for us
For we are glorious
When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I’m meant to be, this is me
Look out ’cause here I come
And I’m marching on to the beat I drum
I’m not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh
Another round of bullets hits my skin
Well, fire away ’cause today, I won’t let the shame sink in