What does it look like to become totally undone? According to the definition it means to become untied, unfastened and even unfinished…Yeah, that describes what my life looked like just a couple years ago. What I thought I was, I wasn’t. My life as I had known it, had unraveled for sure.I wasn’t married anymore, I was now ‘dismarried” according to my grandson That in and of itself, undid me. 25 years of I do, to suddenly, I don’t, undid my identity completely.Who was I apart from being his wife,dedicated mother etc?
I wasn’t the trusted and wise counselor that I was thought to be.I wasn’t the Bible study teacher that had so defined my personality up until I became undone.I was no longer the mom that everyone looked up to and respected.I wasn’t the business owner and entrepreneur that I had hoped to be.I wasn’t perceived as the perfect Prov.31 woman anymore. My identity was shaken but maybe just maybe that wasn’t who I was supposed to be anyway. In all the questioning that ensued,I found myself, simply said, completely undone.
In becoming completely undone, I found myself. My true identity. My redeemed identity. The process however was a painfully joyous one. The freedom and the wholeness I have discovered along this uncertain journey has forever changed me.
Actually its in the unraveling and seeming to be undone that I have become who He had created me to be since the beginning of time. His way is seamless. Always. What I didn’t know was that He was “basting”me by His hand all while finishing the permanent stitching of my torn and strewn heart.Needless to say, my way was extremely exhausting and laborious.What a effortless exchange was made during this period of becoming totally undone.His way has the perfect stitching and His finish will not unravel.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
Neither are your ways, my ways,”declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways.